A Country Doctor Writes:

“To prevent disease, relieve suffering and to heal the sick – this is our work”        

                                                                                          William Osler

“The function of meditation practice is to heal and transform”        

                                                                                         Thich Nhat Hanh

I am not a terribly outgoing person, but more than occasionally in my day as a rural physician, there are expressions of joy and gratitude, hugs and pats on shoulders, moist eyes, failing voices and pensive moments of shared silence. I am never good at small talk in social situations in general, but in the exam room, I always seem to know what to say, no matter what the situation is.

It is as if my role as a doctor gives me the courage and inspiration to “be” the healing presence my patient needs in that moment. It is not an act, but more like being carried by a force that hones my senses and guides my efforts.

Medicine involves archetypal relationships, as there have been sick persons and healers through all of human history. Physicians embody an apostolic profession, with knowledge and wisdom passed on between generations of physicians since Hippocrates’ era.

In our lifetime, these aspects of medicine have been forgotten, ignored or disputed by many, but today’s neurobiology has brought them back into the discussion of what physicians are to their patients.

Eric Cassell, in his book “The Nature of Suffering and the Goals of Medicine”, tells the story of an asthmatic physician, whose disease was out of control until a wise physician treated him as a patient instead of a colleague:

“A physician I know told me about the treatment for his asthma. He was taken care of by a wonderful chest physician whose skills he had seen demonstrated many times before and since. He was on high doses of prednisone (a cortisone like drug) and other medications for many months but he could not seem to get off the drugs without getting sick again. He would meet his doctor in the hospital corridor and ask what to do next. The doctor-patient did what was suggested but to no avail. His own knowledge of asthma was not inconsiderable but that was no help either. He told me that he could not get his friend and colleague to treat him like a patient. Finally, desperate, he went to another doctor whose specialty was asthma. The new physician promptly made my informant into a patient. He told him what to do (what he said seemed the same as what had been previously tried) and scheduled office visits frequently and regularly, and within six months my friend was off all medication. What was the difference? It was not the medications or their schedule – they were the same (at least at the start). The difference, I believe, was that the second physician made him become a patient. Once that happened, the new doctor was able to begin “pulling strings” inside his doctor-patient’s body. No one knows how this comes about or how the physician is able to have an influence on the patient’s illness apart from explicit medical or surgical treatments, but this is the process involved. Current research is increasingly revealing the influence of thinking on immunity and other body functions, so there should be little surprise that doctors are also able to affect the patient’s physiological process. No one doubts that doctors have an influence on their patients’ mental processes – we are of a piece, and affecting one part alters the whole.”

The first physician gave competent clinical advice, but the patient was not helped. The second physician embraced the role and responsibility of the healer. He created, or entered, the space (metaphysical, meditational, Divine, Reiki – or quantum physical if you will) where healing is possible.

Hippocrates said these words 2,500 years ago, and modern science is now realizing the truth and wisdom behind them:

“Natural forces within us are the true healers of disease.”

All we do is facilitate.

A Family Physician in the northernmost part of the United States was acquitted last week of charges stemming from years of guideline insubordination.

Interviewed this weekend by members of the local press while he was cleaning the stall of his favorite horse, the silver-haired doctor declined making comparisons between the manure he was shoveling and the now-abandoned numeric cholesterol guidelines, and would not comment on his former accusers’ fall from their pedestals. He made no reference to “Cholesterol Guidelines and the Bachelor with Platform Shoes”, the very first post on his anonymous blog, “A Country Doctor Writes”.

Instead, he turned philosophical.

“I remember the first cholesterol medication, Atromid”, he said. “It lowered cholesterol but still increased the risk of death by almost 50%. We should all have paid attention to that when it was taken off the market more than ten years ago. You could have satisfied the requirement to reach specific lipid targets with a dangerous drug like that, but not have helped a single patient by prescribing it. Right now, almost the same thing is happening with drugs like Zetia, Tricor and niacin”

Opening a bag of clean pine shavings for the stall floor, the Swedish-born physician continued:

“Health care has changed from a profession to an industry, and the founding principles for physicians, like ’First, do no harm’, have lost their central place.”

“In Sweden”, he continued, “the oldest laws regulating the practice of medicine state that it is the physician’s duty to practice in accordance with ’science and time-tested experience’. Cholesterol treatment is a good example of a practice that drifted into the realm of speculation instead of staying on firm scientific ground. Instead of waiting for outcomes data such as heart attack rates, doctors were more or less willingly jumping on the bandwagon, prescribing unproven and sometimes unsafe medications because pseudoscience extrapolated from surrogate endpoints like LDL and CRP levels.”

“So what did you do when that was the guideline you were working under”, asked one of the reporters.

“I told my patients what the science told us and what the guidelines recommended, and I had the patient make an informed decision, which is pretty much what our new marching orders are.”

“So, you are pleased with the new guidelines?”

The bespectacled sixty-year old physician sighed.

“I am relieved and saddened at the same time”, he answered. “I am relieved we aren’t told to do things that have no basis in science, but I am sad that there has to be guidelines that essentially say ’help the patient understand what we know about heart disease prevention and help them make an informed decision’ – I mean, do we really need a guideline for something as basic as that? Isn’t that the way we are supposed to work anyway?”

He hesitated, then added: “Sometimes clinical guidelines remind me of overly basic consumer information. There is a Swedish joke about one of their neighboring countries. Supposedly glass bottles there are inscribed on the bottom with the words Open at Other End. But of course Norwegians aren’t really that silly, and doctors aren’t either. We’re supposed to be critically thinking professionals, aren’t we?”

With that, he hoisted the last bags of horse manure over his shoulders and brought them down to the dumpster to be hauled off the property. “Fly and odor control – keep the manure away from the barn”, he explained.

On the side of the green four cubic yard dumpster was a warning sign: Do not play on or in.

“I guess everybody has guidelines these days” were his parting words to the reporters before he walked off with a spring in his step and disappeared behind the door of his little red farmhouse.

Marguerite lived on the little hill north of town. You can see her house from the path along the river where I used to walk my beagles. Her tall, turreted Victorian seems to sit right under the constellation of stars in the northern sky I first knew in Swedish as Karlavagnen – Charleswain in Old English, the Plough in British, and the Big Dipper in American.

My house calls at Marguerite Rackliffe’s spanned a period of over ten years. She was already widowed and in her eighties when I began seeing her in her house on Village View Drive. At first, I would visit her every few months, but gradually my house calls became more frequent as her health problems worsened with her advancing age.

Homebound and with no family nearby, she relied on neighbors, acquaintances and hired workers from the community for many of her basic needs. In the beginning, our visits were sometimes more social than medical, but as the years went by, we juggled more and more complex medical issues. Sometimes our visits took place on a spiritual plane; Marguerite was an ordained minister, although she had never had her own church.

I had learned when we first moved to town that Marguerite was a writer. At one time, she had been an editor for a New York book publisher. Now she ran a small publishing company from her home and, by the time I first visited her, from her sick-bed.

I remember the first time I entered her home through the massive double front doors. Inside was a tall, tile floored hallway with a soaring curved staircase.

“I am here, Doctor,” her voice echoed from a large parlor-turned-bedroom. There were books everywhere – in dark floor-to-ceiling bookcases, on a rectangular table, on the mantle and in boxes on the floor.

She was propped up against the tall headboard of an antique bed near the front window, and she had a computer on a stand with the keyboard on an over-bed table in front of her. There were books strewn across the bed.

She spoke with precision and authority as she answered my questions during our review of systems. When I asked her to lie down, she interrupted me and said:

“It is so refreshing to finally hear a doctor say ’lie’ down instead of ’lay’ down.”

“I have to pay more attention, because English is my second language,” I replied.

She had read my column in the local paper and told me she liked it.

“You should write a book,” she said. She continued to say that every so often, and dismissed my excuses about being too busy in my practice. Once, she gave me Dr. Bernard Lown’s book “The Lost Art of Healing”, pointing out that he was a busy doctor and still took time to write.

In every visit with Marguerite, it seemed she gave me more encouragement than I was able to give her. She offered to edit and publish anything I might write, even though her failing eyesight by that time required her to enlarge the fonts on her computer screen to the point where she could only read a few lines of text at a time. There was only so much I could do to control her interrelated medical problems, and I had very little to offer in the way of help for her practical needs.

When I showed concern for her health, she was quick to reciprocate with concern for mine. She spoke of burnout, and gave me her own copy of Thomas Moore’s “Care of The Soul”. Sometimes, she asked if she could pray with me. I sat quietly with her hand holding mine as she prayed for me to have stamina and wisdom in caring for all of my patients. She asked no favors for herself.

We were on a first name basis almost from the beginning, but when she received an honorary doctorate two years before she passed away, she jokingly suggested I must call her “Doctor”.

Every night, walking my dogs, I would turn around after I got to where I could see Marguerite’s house. Most of the time, she would still be up, her computer screen’s bluish light radiating against the night sky. After she passed away, at age 93, I still walked the dogs along my usual route at night. In the beginning I caught myself half expecting to see the light from her computer screen, but her house always lay dark; the only lights near the Rackliffe house were the usual seven brightest stars of Ursa Major in the northern sky.

She has been gone for nine years now, and we have left town for a house in the country. I still do house calls and I sometimes go up Village View Drive. I often think of the decade Marguerite and I shared and how much I learned during those years. My patient became my mentor; her perseverance became my inspiration. She, more than anyone else, showed me how obstacles can make you stronger.

Marguerite’s clear voice still rings in my ears, “I am here, Doctor”. Indeed, she is. I can still feel her presence – praying for my work as a doctor and telling me to keep writing.