A Country Doctor Writes:

The man with chronic sinusitis was ecstatic. “I feel so much better. No more headache, no more congestion, no more fatigue. I even feel less anxious. I mean that’s not really possible, is it? Somebody told me there’s a link…”

“Well, you know, men with prostate infections sometimes present with fatigue and depression”, I said as I minimized the EMR on my laptop and googled “SINUSITIS ANXIETY”.

There were many sites with articles about such an association. Some were blogs, some were ENT practice website and some were actually scientific papers, like JAMA Otolaryngology about anxiety and depression and American Journal of Rhinology an Allergy about depression.

Of course this got me thinking:

Is it the type of bacteria or the location of the infection that is the risk factor?

Is this perhaps a universal association with all infections?

Are the psychological symptoms due to the infection or to our immune response?

How can you be a clinician and not love medicine?

May I never lose my curiosity.

Curiosity, Antidote to Burnout

Our new Nurse Practitioner stopped in my doorway the other day to update me on a patient’s progress. It was a difficult case we had talked about before, with several complications, twists and turns in his case history.

I reflected about how similar that case was to one of my own, where she had been involved enough to know the dilemma – in both these cases, why neurosurgeons sometimes turn down patients with far-gone tissue damage and risk for poor outcomes.

“You know, in just one year here”, she said, “I have seen so much more and learned so much more than my classmates. None of them work in big cities or anything, but they’re all closer to specialists in towns that seem less remote than here.”

“I know”, I answered. “Sometimes it feels a little heroic to be the only resource a patient has or is willing or able to use. So many of my patients have major diseases and don’t want to go 20 miles down the road to Caribou or 35 to Presque Isle. And now endocrinology is gone, rheumatology almost not available, with even Bangor short staffed, and on and on.”

“People think primary care is just simple stuff”, she said. “But it isn’t at all when you practice in rural Maine.”

Thinking back over my career I certainly agree. As it happened, the very same day I saw a patient I once puzzled about and found a rare diagnosis in: a fifty-something man with undiagnosed fairly rapidly progressive shortness of breath seemed to have weaker breath sounds on the left side of his chest. His left lung looked different on X-ray, almost as if it was starting to shrivel up. His CTA showed agenesis of his left pulmonary artery. Only in rural America does the family doctor make that kind of diagnosis.

The Man With the Shrinking Lung

We use the expression “licking your wounds” as an act of defeat and it may be, but I’m thinking about the medical implications of this ancient practice of our closest companions.

I have had dogs and other pets incessantly lick their wounds and have been forced to cover them up to prevent further damage. We even have those Elizabethan collars to keep dogs from doing that.

Recently I had almost parallel experiences with an elderly male patient and a young Alabai female dog who happens to be the latest addition to my household.

The older man has venous insufficiency, chronic edema and a past history of leg ulcers. He had a new one that was treated (elsewhere) with four layers of various dressings I’m not familiar with.

The smell in the room after his dressings were removed was alarming. We (my nurse practitioner and I) cleaned his leg up. The leg ulcer wasn’t bad, but most of the area that had been covered under the thick bandaging was denuded, red and weepy. We decided on a thin layer of Silvadene cream and plain gauze wrapping.

Within a week, he was almost healed and my conclusion was, as often before, that in wound care, less is usually more.

My Alabai had a couple of puncture wounds on her front leg from play fighting with the other Alabai. The breed is nicknamed volkodav in Russian. I never learned that word, as I dropped out of the Swedish military’s interpreter school to pursue my medical training. But it means “wolf crusher”. These dogs are fearless livestock guardians and practice fight with each other.

Anyway, my young dog seemed to be licking her front leg an awful lot, so I got worried and bandaged it up with antibacterial ointment, a Telfa non-stick pad, gauze and “vet-wrap”.

When I got home from work the next few days, the Telfa pad was always on the floor and the dressing seemed intact. But there was redness and hair loss under the bandage, suggesting she had been bothering her front leg through the bandage.

In an act of faith and courage, I then left her without any bandage in her barn guarding spot and went to work.

Lo and behold, she’s licking it almost casually now and then and it is healing nicely.

Again, less is more in wound care.

(There is something about those nonstick pads and animals. Last year my horse had a leg wound. I started out, on my veterinarians recommendation, using such a pad under all the other prescribed wrapping. On three occasions I found the Telfa pad on the ground in the paddock with a completely intact bulky dressing on the horse’s leg. I don’t know how she got it out of there but clearly she didn’t want that kind of dressing material on her wound. So I simplified the dressings and she healed just fine.)

I don’t have a TV and I seldom listen to the radio. Pandora and satellite car radio don’t interest me much anymore. If I watch a movie on my iPad, it is a conscious choice.

Once in a while I play music on my Bose while I iron shirts, but more often I do that and all my other chores in silence.

It is like when I was a young boy, a quiet only child, living in a silent household with my parents or staying with my grandparents. My head was full of thoughts, dreams and reflections.

My grandmother, who was born in 1900, had no toys at her house. She gave me paper and pencil and it was up to me to do something with them. She told me about how she used to play farm with pine cones for animals when she was little. There were different kinds in the park-like woods outside her house and I, too, played with them.

I have written almost a thousand blog posts. Sometimes after a significant clinical event or encounter, I make a note to myself to write about it. But more often, my days pass and their observations fade into some recesses of my mind. They don’t come back until I find myself in silence, doing manual tasks or sitting down, in bed or in my recliner, with the blank, white screen of my iPad in front of me.

Thoughts like, “what have I learned this week”, or “what has struck me about my work or the practice of medicine lately” make me bring back those fleeting moments I almost have forgotten.

I consume less and less and create more and more. The Internet nomenclature for people who do what I do is just that: Content Creator. Sometimes I write because something I read made me reflect or react, but mostly I draw from my own experiences.

I find that the more I write, the more ideas I get for what more to write about. Nothing I think or write about is totally new or earth shattering, but it serves a purpose for me in keeping me deeply conscious of what I do and who I am.

Knowing that others read my words is a great and humbling privilege that gives me more inspiration to keep trying to capture the essence of being a 68 year old, 41 year veteran family doctor in rural America.

From the silence in my life to all these published words, I am firmly present here on this plot of land, and I am out there, all over the world. How strange.

Brett Norén is a man in his late 50s with multiple medical problems. He also has chronic pain, anxiety and ADHD. He scored high on the Prescription Monitoring Website. He came to me on opiates, a stimulant and a low dose benzodiazepine. I saw him for a while and his drug tests were always on target. Then I didn’t hear from him for a few months.

His prescriptions expired. The pharmacy sent renewal requests. I refilled everything except the controlled ones.

Then he reappeared in my schedule.

“I’d like to get back on my meds”, he said. “I’m not doing well without them. My nerves are shot, I can’t sleep because of my pain and I can’t finish anything I start.”

“Well, you’d have to start from scratch with a drug test right now”, I said.

“Oh, I tell you, Doc, it wouldn’t be good.”

“So, what would be in it?”

“Meth”, he answered without hesitation.

“That can cause anxiety and insomnia”, I said.

“Not for me. I feel no pain, I sleep at night and my nerves are doing better when I use.”

“How often?”

“Couple of times a week.”

“So you have a choice. Meth or meds.”

“Meth.”

“Your choice.”

“Even the lorazepam?”

“Yes, it’s a controlled substance.”

“All right, I hear you. I guess I’ll see you in three months for my diabetes”, he said, rose from his chair and started moving toward the door without making eye contact again.